I'm right now in so much panic and denial, I don't know what to do, nor what to say right now...

the cops where here just 10 min ago...
Demanding over 7000 euro's money.
My mum lost the case against Pidpa...

Let me tell you the story.
a long time ago we lived in a house when dad left us we got into a lot of trouble, and not much later my mum had her car accident which made her loose the company. (we had a taxi company)

*sighs* we only had a few days to move out of that house I was mentioning. They came there and said: 'you can't live anymore in this house because this house is about to fall apart' no kidding, the walls where broken. we had no heat, we where sleeping in the winter with stove's from the year 1960. I remember sleeping with 3 smelly blankets over my body for the cold. Ice was inside the house...

so when finally help came we where forced to move out of that house. If you are wondering how the house is been doing... The house has been taken down, and it still hurts when I get passed there... I lived there ... since my brother was just born...

So, while they set us out of the house, we didn't had enough time to close everything down, the electricity the water etc.
Everything got fixed, so was us told. I remember wending by the house, noticing the door got kicked in and actually junkies lived in that house for a while...
the neighburs complained cops came and they sealed the house once more, but meantime... the water was running...

and yes we rented that house, we didn't bhought the house...
I remember before they took the house down, that was ... almost 2-3 years later when they did that, i went for a sneak peak in the house, don't ask me how i got in there... I just did... and don't ask me why.. I wanted to see my old room everything again... I found stuff that was unbelieveble, the stairs whe're cracking, i was scared to go look upstairs... but I found my ferrets cage upside down where a baby had slept in... Vaccins for drugs etc etc...

THEN 2 years later, came the bill of the water OF THAT OLD HOUSE.
over 3000 euro's.

We went to court of course with that, any retard would understand the situation, we got kicked out cause the house was falling apart, us was asurred everything was closed off and fine... We won the first trial...

But pidpa decided to go to supreme court... Guess what now we lost. everything included that we have to pay now is over 7000 euro's...

So, since we can't pay, they wrote everything down that we owe. The stove, the computers, the tv, anything that's worth something. I asked: dude I paid this computer myself, the monitor was a gift from my friend! you can't take our stuff O_O My brother got this pc from our grandmother.

'Yeah yeah we need to write it down, prove it and you get to keep your stuff, if not you loose it'

You'll know right now how sick I am in my stomach, and right now, I can tell you, my stomach is so hard and in pain, I don't know what to do... not to say, I'm furious, I'm sad, I'm cursing, I'm so tired of this bad luck we keep having... My brother is crying right now in his room, and my brother is the strongest of us.

We kept fighting really with everything and I can't ask help to no one... If I would ask a cent to everyone in belgium, yes then I can pay that stupid unjustified bill 'idpa' made.

but, it's not because of my pride that I don't beg for money..; It's because there people out there who have it a lot worse then we do... I can't ask for money, I can't do that... I'm working on commissions so I can give that money to my mother to help her...

GEEBUS! I'm 25 and ever since I'm 16 I give the one money that I earn to her, why to help her! I can't take the advice that people give me: 'Leave it there, leave your mother, cause it means trouble'
yeah you try leaving your mother when she's in a lot of trouble... >-< Knowing if you leave she has no idea what to do... I know my mum, I know she'll commit suicide if I leave now...

I can't, I made the promise to help her, what child would I be if I just left... I would be a very bad child...


*rubs head*

I don't know what to do seriously, and I don't want to beg. I just got fired, I'm badly sick. need to wait until that's better before I can find another job... mum's job doesn't pay much.. Steve's a school kid...

I can't anymore, I can't find the strength anymore... -_-