This journal will stand on both fA and dA

Things got worse, not only with my health, but mum's health too. The healthinsurance decided to hold in my money that i get monthly, so i wont get paid jack sh!t. Mum went to 700 so it's enough for the rent and the electricity bill.

Meantime, I am heavyly indebted with my neighbur granma, (she aint mah real one, but she's such nice person)
loaned money to pay off a heavy bill, but i promissed to pay her atleast 200 euro's back each month, so far i havn't reached even 100.
The indebtcouncelers got to our house, threatend to take eveything i have, so starting today i only have 13 days left to reach to an amount of 4854.23 euro's, which included, a rent to late, due lack of deposit from the healthinsurance (we're fighting this now btw) my healthbills, i have the one check up in my body after the other, my hospital bills, I HAVE TIO PAY BACK 701 EURO's BACK TO THE STATE!!!!
and so on, and so on,
Steve, my bro has been very selfish and used my mothers cellphone, which she only has for emergency's to call to the philliphines, and yesterday we had the bill, over 582 euro's that one was, we asked Steve, WHY! for GODSAKE WHY!!!
he first did that with the housephone

i closed it down, and now they shut down the net too, because I still owe them almost 700 euro's.
Before people say: let your bro pay it, he has jack sh!t, he doesn't think when he acts. My mum and I are completely ignoring him.

And that's why I had hoped, if anyone is interested to lend me some money, or if anyone feels like donating a few cents, or spreading the news around, really, i'm on my knees now, my mum has heartbeatings, and she thinks she wont live long anymore, the cramps in her heart are bad, and we can't aford the doc anymore, a really nice guy names Xivk helped us a lot, which i'm very grateful for.
But all I can do now, is just lay on my knees, my health is getting back worse, just cause of the stress;

I'm here 'stealin' someone's net right now, it shutted itself two times already, so i don't have long,
I'm tired of being in this bad luck, it's been official by the doc, i'm not ready for work for my healthissue's, i'm exhausted, and i mean it.
I notice going back to bed more, i'm so sorry,... I'm tired of fighting.
I try to remain positive though, but i keep feeling tired, the pain in my body, but yet, i'm the only one in the family going, it "will" turn fine, mum, it will turn fine...
But in meantime i have no idea how... I believe...

if anyone wants to donate or lend me some money, i'll try to pay back with the fallowing months that passes, even if you guys don't mind with 5-20 euro's, cuz i aint got no idea right now...
We're fighting the process, but i'm tired of the people who we owe money too to come to our house and write down our stuff...

I feel momently i'm the only one fighting with the tiny bit of strenght. B'cuz steve cares only for his girl, so i don't help him anymore, and mum is so weak right now t-------------t

Please anyone ...
After i'm out of therapy, i'll get a job and pay those back who helped me.

my paypal is [link]
if you want to buy some art.

I'm open for 'own chara' commissions, if you feel like seeing a sketh i did being colored, just note me... I'll work hard as I can...


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~svarta-perlan came up with a great idea!
And I'm wiling to try it out.

This is the Commission Lottery which starts after you've read this journal (meaning today)

Buy a number(s) for only 2 euro's (2,50$) each.
You can choose the availble numbers from 1 till 200. -> [link]

Once all 200 are sold, random.org will pick out the lucky number.
Now what does this lucky number win?!
A commission at their choice. Two characters fully colored, shaded on top of that, I will send you the original lineart and sketh to your house with a signatured highquality print.
How's that?

Now how do you order?
Check this list if your number's' are still availeble -> [link]
and NOTE me on dA. DO NOT REPLY YOUR NUMBERS ON THIS JOURNAL
or i'll grow very ... very confused.
You choose your numbers and if they are indeed availble (lets say the one who noted before you has choosen it) I wil tell you and comfirm, then you send me your payment and KEEP the proof of which numbers you have bhought.

Good luck :3

Thank you so much for reading this t---t

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